The end of a (very short) era

I worked my last day at the Mercer Island Maggie Moo's. We finally had to shut the doors due to the economy and the lack of customers. I am going to work for the owners other store in Maple Valley on the weekends. This way I will be working 7 days a week, but I will have every weeknight available for Carrie and the kidlets.

What the heck!!!

Ok, so I don't fully understand what is exactly happening with me, but with the added stress of a fourth child on the way, albeit 8 or so months off, my seasonal affect disorder is going haywire. I haven't had a really bad episode this year and since my surgery it has been almost non existant. Vitamin D was taking care of any issues that I was having. Not today though. I was driving my kidlets up to school (the ones on the bus, not my own) and just felt...dark. There is an immense cloud cover over Seattle today and unfortunately it is hitting me really hard. I then just sat in my car in the parking lot at school and the panic attacks started. I am home right now because I couldn't sit in three hours of classes like this. I realize that may seem as a bit if a cop out for those that don't really get it but for me, this isn't just a way to skip class. I suppose that I will pull out of this eventually. I have to. I have two jobs and three classes and 4 family members that depend on me.

And the saga begins...again...

So after 11 years and absolutely no contraception whatsoever, we just found out last night that we are going to have a baby. We have 3 children already that are adopted and we thought that we wouldn't ever give birth and we were actually ok with that. Our three previous 'pregnancies' only lasted 9 weeks at the most. Now this next 9 months or so is going to feel like torture. More for Carrie than for me though. I think that she is excited to finally get to experience pregnancy and there isn't much that I can do for her. We had thought that we weren't going to tell the kids yet as they have no concept of time and we don't want to be deluged with constant questions about when the baby is coming. That didn't last though. We told them tonight at dinner and I think that they are going to be just fine with it. Hannah informed us that she wouldn't accept anything less than a girl. If it is a boy she would be out of here. We just decided to let her deal. She has 9 months to come to grips with a new sibling. She is going to be a big sister soon and that is going to be an adjustment. I am intending to use this forum to keep all the friends and family up-to-date on what is happening in Baby Ville.